Archive for January, 2008

I am completely addicted to digital scrapbooking. I was afraid this would happen and it has.

I need a 12 step program plz!

This has been just an “off” month I guess. I’ve been kind of going through the motions each day. It’s weird and hard to explain.

I’ve had a lot go on in the last couple weeks. Just some changes here and there and some have turned our world upsidedown unfortunately. We can’t change anything, so it’s just something to accept and move on. I am worried about the husband though. He seems ok, but maybe he’s just going through the motions too.

We kind of had a little routine going since we’ve lived here and I’ve liked that a lot. Our days were basically the same, I knew what to expect, and well…now it’s kind of like, ok…what’s next?

I’m sure this too shall pass, but in the meantime I just want to get my life back to the working order it was in! I liked that little life. it was simple, predictable…orderly. This is a mess. Chaos…stress…the unknown. Sucks.

Even the whole dog food thing is off. I can’t seem to have enough food thawed out when I run out of food. I ran almost completely out of necks the other day and the next package was completely frozen. Last box I was totally on top of it…this month, not so much. It’s not really a big thing, just something I’ve noticed.

There’s so much I want to say and get off my chest. Nothing about anyone or any situation in particular, just general things. But I’ll leave that for another time, another blog and another day.

I have a case of the Mondays on a Tuesday…

So our nice LCD monitor died. We’re using this large, dinosaur monitor that my husband’s mom got for us from her school. As thankful as I am, my custom made desk just isn’t made for such a beast which is making my computer time uncomfortable.

Hence the blog post slowing down. Hence my “to do” list not being done. Hence the pain I have in my neck.

Sigh…only 3 more weeks till we can get a new one.

I would like an answer to this ASAP. Thankyouverymuch.

I’ve had this cold since eh, Wednesday I guess. Mind you, I am MUCH better today as I was on Thursday or Friday, but I went through almost an entire roll of Scott toilet paper. Yikes, my nose is all red and on fire, but that was all we had in the house. We don’t keep Kleenex here. Then my husband bought me a box of Puffs with Vicks…WONDERFUL invention…thank you Puffs people. And I am almost through that box now too.

The snot is never ending and I’d like to know why.

That is all for tonight. Ponder that a while. I may do a little google research and see what pops up.

Intervention and Paranormal State are on tonight! Yippee!!

Google research: Someone on Yahoo Answers wanted to know the same thing. Glad I am not alone in this big world wondering how when I blow every bit of snot out of my nose, it just fills back up 10 seconds later. I read some answers…but it just doesn’t seem right and is still a mystery to me.

Off to blow my nose and watch TV!

Ok…Michigan is in a deep freeze right now. It’s 10 degrees here!

I am freezing here in this room. I don’t know why it seems so cold in here. I need to get out of here and go lay in my warm bed!

Nothing is going on here. I’ve had a cold, but I felt alot better today.

Gonna go warm up!

H

It’s 2:53 am as I am beginning this. I think the dog may have had a seizure tonight, so that’s why I’m up. I posted in his blog about it a bit. Funny thing is, I didn’t wake up from the noise of the seizure. I don’t know why. Maybe it’s time for a baby monitor.

I’ve been listening to “The Secret” again at work. I think this concept is very interesting. It’s so hard for me to give up the urge to worry and obsess about things though. But I’ll give it a try. 2008 has to be turned around somehow.

My fricking monitor is flickering for some weird reason. It needs to stop, seriously. I cannot get a new one right now.

Ok back to The Secret…it’s interesting to me the concept of being able to mold our lives with our thoughts and our mind. Let’s take this dog situation for instance. Normally, I just worry a little about him having a seizure…but the weather has been wonky, so I’ve almost been expecting it…plus today someone asked me when the last one he had was and I mentioned that to the husband has well. So there’s at least 3 days of me thinking or talking about him having a seizure. Why was I surprised when he had one? If I believe in what the Secret teaches, then I brought it on with my mind. I need to clear my mind of his seizures, put them out of my mind and see him as a perfectly healthy dog in each and every way. But the skeptic in me wonders if I can actually do that and if it will actually work.

This is pretty deep stuff for 3am, but I’ve been listening to it all week and the audio book basically says the same things over and over, so it gets embedded in the mind.

It’s just so interesting.

Well I’m going to try to put the dog back in bed again. Nite for now!

2008 has not had the best of starts.

First the dogs got out…then my car broke down…we were able to repair it, but it needs a lot more work to be completely fixed. This will have to wait till we get paid again.

And today, our little Razzle kitty got out of the house. For some reason this cat just does not want to stay in!!! I don’t get it. Anyways, the dogs were muddy so my anal retentive husband didn’t want to let them in the house…dirt is cleanable…the kitty being lost isn’t. The cat kept going under the deck…which, btw, will be finished off with some nice lattice in the spring. And when Razzle finally came out, he slipped under the gate.

First instinct, open the gate and run after him…doh! It’s chained and locked!!! So the husband runs up the deck and through the house. I follow, but since it’s like 50 degrees here, the deck is wet and slippery and I was wearing fake crocs…the slipperiest shoes on earth let me tell you…and I ended up slipping and landing HARD on the steps.

I slammed my knee into the corner of the step and I can’t even describe how much it hurts or what it feels like I did. I also slammed my chest against another step and hurt my arm somehow. I will definitely feel like a mac truck hit me tomorrow, I can already feel it a little…but geez, what a mess.

Oh, and we were able to get the cat.

2008 needs to get better. I am listening to The Secret to see if I can’t change this mess around.

I need to stick it on my ipod too.

Oh, and I’m also starting to eat healthy starting tomorrow. Healthier…not completely 100% better, but better than I was.

Later…H

And no…not the seizure kind….

I went to let the dogs back in from outside at like 5:45 and they didn’t come when I called them! I was calling and calling and nothing. My heart SANK…where did they go? So I checked and OMG the gate was open! I ran to the front door to see if they were on the porch or something. No, they weren’t there either.

I called my husband who was at work and told him the dogs were gone. He works about a 1/2 hour from home but he left to come home and help me.

I ran in my house changed shoes, shut the back door, grabbed my keys and purse and jacket and ran outside. I called and called and called for them.

We’re very near a busy interesection so I feared the worst! And also, OMG where did they go??? So I was yelling and yelling and heard whistling and yelling from on the other side of this brick wall that’s behind our house. I could barely hear her, but I jumped in my car to go there. I saw an SUV parked in a driveway and 2 ladies there. I left my car running, keys in it and my purse and got out to look for the dogs.

She said she JUST saw a black dog and a red and white dog – MY BABIES! – so I called and called them and we followed the prints around…but they weren’t there. There is a building that’s being built there and also a used car dealership so we were walking through there calling them and whistling for them. The one lady said she was trying to stop them from crossing the busy road…THANK GOD she did. She just kept saying she JUST saw them, so I knew they couldn’t have been far.

So we both left there to see if they were back in the neighborhood. I was going to drive by my house and then back out to see if I could find them. I stopped to look in our yard and I heard honking behind me…and a little black bundle of fur running towards me!!! Ok, there’s onyx, where’s Topaz. I got her in the car and thanked the ladies and our neighbors across the street were out shoveling and asked if we were still looking for another dog. I said YES! and they said I think we have him in our yard…and there was topaz!!!!

OMG…scary scary scary!! The whole ordeal was only 15 minutes, but alot can happen in 15 minutes with two dogs and a very busy intersection at rush hour!

We think someone let them out of the yard, so the gate will be getting a chain and lock come payday.

I don’t think i’ve ever been so scared and felt so helpless ever…and I don’t think I’ve prayed so hard to find them safe and sound. A lot goes through your head!

But they are both safe and home…THANK GOD and thanks to everyone who helped…I don’t know who they are…but the kindness of strangers is overwhelming.

I wonder what was going through their heads…like did they know they were lost? i am sure they could hear me and I wonder if they were scared because they could hear me but not find me and they were looking for home. Then I wondered if they were going back to our old house which is like 4 blocks from where we live now. I was going to swing by there and check too. But it seems like they did find their way back home, or almost. Topaz was in a neighbor’s yard and Onyx was just down the road. I assume they were together, but they were separate when I found them.

That was the longest 15 minutes of my life.