This has been me lately!!

I have been so stressed out, which is why I haven’t blogged or done much of anything. Well, I take that back, I’ve been doing things…just not some of the things that I need to do.

I don’t like change. I know “change is good” and all that, and everything changes and we should adapt to change, but I don’t do well with change. I am the first to admit it.

It stresses me out and causes a lot of anxiety for me.

Once I get used to whatever the situation is, I’m usually ok with everything, but during the time until I get used to it…watch out, I’m a MESS! This usually means I’m full of cold sores, get headaches, stomach aches, diarrhea (TMI, sorry) etc.

So, I’ve been very stressed lately.

Lots of changes at work…all at once and all different. We switched floors, which means new desks, new neighbors (I’m lucky and one of my good friends is my neighbor…which can be a challenge to get the work done at times, but has been ok so far), new rates, new screens, new programs and now I’m in training at work to learn a whole new system. Draining training which is 6 hours a day…slow, boring training…and then back to my desk for what is almost 2 hours and try to make production with the crappiest work I’ve ever seen in my LIFE because before I could do that crappy work and make up the time with the easier work…but I don’t even HAVE the easier work so the crappy work just takes longer and therefore causing me to NOT make production. Ugh…it’s a mess. And it gives me a headache, in fact just thinking about it gives me a headache. I must move on…

Then at home…I’m in school. I decided, mid year that I should be taking advantage of the tuition money that my job gives us…just HANDS us. So I’m taking an HTML class and a JavaScript class. I wanted to take a different HTML class and an American History class (oh these are online BTW…def not ready to venture into the classroom yet!) but I couldn’t register until the 2nd or 3rd day because I wasn’t already a student so those two classes were full and I ended up with the two I am in now. So far I’m doing pretty well, but the Java class is kind of hard. My brain doesn’t think that way, so although I’m doing well…I feel like I’ve been struggling with it.

I honestly do not know how people work full time, raise children, go to school AND keep a house clean! That’s where things have been slacking…the house cleaning. Not that we’re the cleanest people on earth, but omg the kitchen…which was always the WORST area…is totally a disaster! I’m ready to just bag it all up and throw it away and buy everything new. I don’t know when I’m going to have time to do it…plus it’s so bad that it’s overwhelming and I don’t know where to start. Lovely stuff.

And don’t say the husband, who’s on disability and home all.day.long. should do it…that’s one fight I’m just tired of having.

AND I’m behind on the foundation stuff. I don’t like to get too behind on it, but we have a few big things coming up soon and I need to squeeze them in somewhere…I need about 10 more hours in a day or a clone to stay home and do stuff here while I’m at work, or else be able to function normally on about 15 minutes of sleep. If anyone knows how to make any of the above work…plz let me know!

So anyways…that’s what’s been going on as of late. I’ve just been exhausted lately, and stressed.